What? No Do-Overs?

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If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sins is left, but only a fearful expectation of judgment and of raging fire that will consume the enemies of God. (Hebrews 10:26-27)

The worst thing a kid can hear is “Just wait until your father gets home.” There you are, between the offense and the punishment, in a kind of limbo that’s more terrible than either the sin or the judgment. All you can think about it what’s going to happen when Dad gets home. You can see his face darken. You can hear him walking deliberately down the hall toward your bedroom where you’ve been cloistered all afternoon praying for mercy, hoping for some local cataclysm that might avert the impending wrath, wondering if a buck and some spare change could buy you a bus ticket to Mexico. The sun is dimmed. The air is thick with the stench of doom. You have to pee but don’t dare move.

Rewind.

Okay. So. I’m saved, right? I believe in Jesus and even some parts of the Bible that I’ve read. I can recite John 3:16 almost from memory. I go to church even though I would rather sleep in on Sunday mornings. I remember to pray when my other options run out, and I’m against communism. Basically I was thinking I had my bases covered in the salvation department. I thought that once you had your eternal season ticket you were in.

So now I find that you can lose your keys to heaven? I thought I was forgiven for all my sins, past, present, and future. Isn’t that written into the contract somewhere? Isn’t that what the whole GRACE thing is about? What about the confess your sins and he is faithful to forgive you clause? What about the nobody can claim to be without sin part? What about once saved always saved?

Is this some kind of morbid joke?

Look. I don’t need this kind of pressure. Every sin I that I sin is deliberate, for crying out loud. I’ve deliberately sinned at least 15 times today already and I’ve got the rest of the day to go. In fact, I’ve got some deliberate sinning scheduled for this afternoon. Up till now I had thought that being able to sin without going to hell was one of the main perks of being saved in the first place. I thought the blood would never lose its power—now I find that the power can be cut off?

He’s got to be kidding. Right? Sheesh. There should be a seminary requirement for Bible writers. I am seriously thinking about becoming a United Methodist so I don’t have to worry about this crap.

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